So what to say today.... hummmmmmmmmmm not really sure .. I feel bah humbug tonight.
Not used to getting up so early lol but with that said the class went really well. I pushed a bit to hard at first and felt that muscle stiff up like it felt before so I had to cut down on the kicks but I still did it just slow and careful ... I felt stupid like I could have well I should have been doing more. I can't begin to tell you how flustering it is to want to do it and can't literally ... and if you push to hard to do it you will only make it worse and it will take longer ... urgh.....!
I did not do well on the diet today either oopsss ... had three fun milky way bars LOL they were calling my name could not help it but on the bright side I did stop myself from picking while making the babies lunch today ... but still I suppose I failed at that goal today :(
Tried to call mumz today I needed my fix ... but her no answer :( .. I so love my mother-in-law she makes me bust a gut and she is honest with so much love .. corse to know me is to know I am not to far off from that ... its just nice to talk to someone who I don't have to worry about hurting feelings I can be me... Aimers to she is so sweet ... God blessed me with married into family I hope they each know how much I love them... :)
On a bright note I am blessed... God has given me so much. He gave me some free time and I got the new Serger J bought me Sunday threaded and tonight I used it a bit :) ...
I also have not done my devotionals ... urgh and its already nine pm ... I need to read them they calm me and I am ashamed to say while I know the Bible well I have never read it front to back ... :( My dad would be disappointed. But I am working on it those are my devotions a chapter a night. :)
Today was just plain a downer ... Thursdays get to me I miss J .. I know I know I should be used to it but I hate him gone so much ... the kids and I are so much happier when he is home and by thursday I have to remind myself how blessed I am to stay home and his job was a choice we made together. It just gets to me sometimes. Today was one of them days. He will be home sometime tomarrow night so it will be ok. Then gone again on Sunday ... sigh ... oh well just a bad day I suppose.
Tomarrow Gear Bear is having a party for Kayden birthday. Kayden is Geary's girlfriends son cut little kiddo... he loves the Cars movie so sure I will get him something for that.
My class tomarrow is 9 AM only 45 min long but I am not looking forward to taking Jill and jr to the daycare ... they are so used to me they don't do well ... we will see ... last time Jill almost got kicked out for hitting a kid who took a toy from Jr lol least she watches out for her brother LOL ... we will have the be kind talk and the no hitting talk lol ... oh my! will stress the entire time.
My mom is comming to get Jaz from the house to take her shopping for material for a formal dance in Jan ... :) least she does help the girls sew those formals cause I can't do it LOL and they cost so much ... she is a beautiful seamstress.
Jess has a football game pep band thing so she will be out late tommarow night ... will be a busy day...
Like I said just kinda blah today ... or maybe I am just tired not sure ... but on that note ... I want to thank everyone who reads ty for the private message and for the public ones they help more then you know... huggers
Everyone has a "blue day" as my mum calls then once in awhile, hon. Not to worry, J will be home soon to pick up your spirits.
ReplyDeletePersonally I believe if you go off your diet every once in awhile you can stay on it longer. A few fun size milkey ways aren't going to hurt you as much as a while chocolate cake or a tub of ice cream. (nod nod wink wink) Gotta treat yourself with an atta boy occasionally.
I used to go to a workout every day after work. With asthma and arthritis in my knees, I found the aerobics a bit much at times....so I just modified the moves to what I could do and, if necessary, took a break every once in a while. Unfortunately the place closed. Never looked for another. (sigh)
Don't be too hard on yourself, hon. You didn't fail today, you just slipped and that is why I have come to walk with you on your journey. Friends help steady friends when they falter and help them get up when they fall. Lean on me, that's the whole reason I'm here. Has nothing whatsoever to do with the fact that I care about you. (smiling....) Well, maybe a little.
Got you in my amens, hon, so you can be assured help is on the way from the man upstairs.
Love, Denise
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