Halloween

Well believe it or not I miss this blog the last two days....


We had a nice weekend indeed ... J took the older kids to the Moss Mansion for the haunted house... they had a nice time ... good for them to do that ... both my brothers and thier ladies went to. Its nice when they all get to hang out ... I stayed home and watched the babies lol when did I get to be the old one LOL gezzz.... My knee gave me some fits but it was not to bad.


yesterday went on my shoppin couponing spree for the weekend ... I did awesome getting my wheat thins for 50 cents a box and my toothpaste (5 tubes) for 45 cents ... thos were my best deals but I got much much more and did very very good ... wooohooo! The wheat thins excite me one of my diet snacks are 16 wheat thins and two wedges of laughing cow cheese ... nice snack and its less then 250 calories :) and the babies like it to ... so that will be awesome !!!


I did not get to go to the gym 2day cause jr is bad sick with a viral he is finially holding down fluids but has no interest in eating anything! Then today got a call from JJ's school he was vomiting and I had to go get him :( poor kid has the dry heeves ickky .. on friday they canceled his school festival for the season due to 37 ill kids at the school and today over 30 have gone home sick with the flu....... he wants to trick or treat so bad too... I told him we have lots of candy ... "its not the same he says " ... aww poor guy.. I was gonna have Jess stay home with the baby and hand out candy but now with two sick the older girls gonna take jillian to the church trunk or treat and to a few houses ... Not a fun treat night for sure :( .

Jay got off without a hitch and is back in Casper :( boy I miss him but its all good we are blessed! I love him so much he works so hard... I Know I say it alot but its true LOL .... Wish we had more time. What time we do get we have so much fun with the kids and each other.

Today's goals were met ... I got the house cleaned up and even did the stairs a few times for some laundry with two sick boys needed to get some of it done... I did a few exercises here at home but its not the same :( I will get to go in the morning its the early class and I can go before girls get off to school.

Everyone have a happy halloween!

Day 5

Okie dokie so today is much much better as was yesterday. I had a much better day.


Thank you for all the messages and for the pick me ups this is exactly why I started this you all helped more then you know!!!!! Bless you!


I know the blog site is a bit confusing and some of you have asked me how to get the background ... go to templates to pick a look then to add the pictures edit the template and the layouts.... it will allow you to add gadgets and such. If you can't comment ( I know many are flustered) you can use a few diffrent ways but the easiest is to join the website or to have a google account. But know its fine with me if you never comment your each welcome to just send FB messages or nothing at all. I love each of you and you each bless my life so much! I like this only folks I wish to keep in my circle LOL I don't deal well with new people I guess.


So yesterday was interesting to say the least. I went to the new class ... it was a good class older but it was ok. Jill and jr LOVED the daycare lol or as Jill calls it her school LOL LOL It's good for them to interact with other kids. Especially Jason jr that child is so unsocial LOL and thinks he is a gangster lol always scowling lol its so funny. But when he does play he is nice ok no he aint lol he is just honery ... he really likes to observe and just kinda keep to himself ... we will see maybe this will help it.


Yesterday did a bit of shopping at KMart I have to tell you I love thier kids clothes and not everyone goes there Penny's and Kmart lol are my go to stores for the babies  I get so sick of looking at walmart clothes on every child. Got the Cars movie for Kayden's birthday gift and him a couple of outfits too .. :) he liked them. It was a nice little family get together.


My mother came and got Jazy and they got thier fabric ... only to sit at my kitchen table and tell me and Jaz how her cutting her hair short is againt the bible ...... oh heavens seriously... everytime I cut my hair she complains lol but now its a issue of hell and heaven really... Jesus came here so we could live in grace to take all the old testiment literal would be impossible to live its why God gave us Jesus... but to argue that is pointless. She has it set in her mind so therefore that is how it is. rolling my eyes .


so today I am gonna drag J to the gym with me and maybe we will take the kids swimming and then jsut hang out and do a movie later tonight ... See if J wants to take Jess and JJ to the moss mansion for thier Halloween thing. I am nto really into halloween never have been ... but the kids dressed up are adorable!


I hope you each have a blessed day knwo I love ya.. I won't blog tommarow till late cause I spend most moments I can with J while he is here ... hugs!!!

Day 4

So what to say today.... hummmmmmmmmmm not really sure .. I feel bah humbug tonight.

Not used to getting up so early lol but with that said the class went really well. I pushed a bit to hard at first and  felt that muscle stiff up like it felt before so I had to cut down on the kicks but I still did it just slow and careful ... I felt stupid like I could have well I should have been doing more. I can't begin to tell you how flustering it is to want to do it and can't literally ... and if you push to hard to do it you will only make it worse and it will take longer ... urgh.....!

I did not do well on the diet today either oopsss ... had three fun milky way bars LOL they were calling my name could not help it but on the bright side I did stop myself from picking while making the babies lunch today ... but still I suppose I failed at that goal today :(

Tried to call mumz today I needed my fix ... but her no answer :( .. I so love my mother-in-law she makes me bust a gut and she is honest with so much love .. corse to know me is to know I am not to far off from that ... its just nice to talk to someone who I don't have to worry about hurting feelings I can be me... Aimers to she is so sweet ... God blessed me with married into family I hope they each know how much I love them... :)

On a bright note I am blessed... God has given me so much. He gave me some free time and I got the new Serger J bought me Sunday threaded and tonight I used it a bit :) ...

I also have not done my devotionals ... urgh and its already nine pm ... I need to read them they calm me and I am ashamed to say while I know the Bible well I have never read it front to back ... :( My dad would be disappointed. But I am working on it those are my devotions a chapter a night. :)

Today was just plain a downer ... Thursdays get to me I miss J .. I know I know I should be used to it but I hate him gone so much ... the kids and I are so much happier when he is home and by thursday I have to remind myself how blessed I am to stay home and his job was a choice we made together. It just gets to me sometimes. Today was one of them days. He will be home sometime tomarrow night so it will be ok. Then gone again on Sunday ... sigh ... oh well just a bad day I suppose.

Tomarrow Gear Bear is having a party for Kayden birthday. Kayden is Geary's girlfriends son cut little kiddo... he loves the Cars movie so sure I will get him something for that.

My class tomarrow is 9 AM only 45 min long but I am not looking forward to taking Jill and jr to the daycare ... they are so used to me they don't do well ... we will see ... last time Jill almost got kicked out for hitting a kid who took a toy from Jr lol least she watches out for her brother LOL ... we will have the be kind talk and the no hitting talk lol ... oh my! will stress the entire time.

My mom is comming to get Jaz from the house to take her shopping for material for a formal dance in Jan ... :) least she does help the girls sew those formals cause I can't do it LOL and they cost so much ... she is a beautiful seamstress.

Jess has a football game pep band thing so she will be out late tommarow night ... will be a busy day...

Like I said just kinda blah today ... or maybe I am just tired not sure ... but on that note ... I want to thank everyone who reads ty for the private message and for the public ones they help more then you know... huggers

Day 3

So today I will try something diffrent considering no one read my post yesterday LOL LOL .... I think its cause I did not send it out in messages so guess I will do that :) should be cool ...  so I did all my goals today wooohooo ... and tomarrow starts my first workout.  I am a bit nervous but  I know it will be fine :) ... should be interesting leave at 530  am so I can get back before the girls leave for school ... that is on tues and thurs. Mon and Fri. I will take the babies with me and put them in the nursery and take a diffrent class. Wed I will take off and Sat I will lift weights with J and the girls :) ... that is the plan lets hope J goes with me lol he will but I will have to push him I am sure :).

I want to wish Aimers a Happy Bday ... so glad ur hubby is there give him a hug for me and I hope u enjoy those roses and have a awesome day.

I am honestly exhausted ... and don't have alot to say. I cooked ran all over town like a mad woman with my girlfriend Julie .... interesting to say the least ... I am not a girlfriend kinda person my family is my life but to have a gal pal day now and then is good but what I don't understand is how someone will ask for my advise then not take it openingly .... she has heard me talk about my couponing and my wed shopping adds and savings and my meal plans and yet she spends more on food then I do is broke as can be and has no desire to try it ... and lol she has two less kids then I do ... I don't get it ... sigh instead she will go to the food bank and complain about what she gets .... never ends. Why is it ... that it seems to be I have folks around me that just don't use thier brains I love them but wanna smack ummm lol lol ... I am sure they feel the same about me sometimes... I will just keep offering to show her maybe one day she will be willing ... u can't force no one to do nothing and I hope I show love no matter what ... do my best ... its a fine line between being two faced and being kind ... she knows how I feel just drives me bonkers LOL


My goals today were reached and my goal for tommarrow is to simply make it to the early class and do my best :) have fun and get home safe ...

follow my diet ... and clean my bathroom urgh I hate that LOL


Blessing to each of you and God bless ya and ty for comming to my neck of the woods.

Day 2

We are now on day 2. I think if I blog it tonights it will count lol cause I have a ton to do first thing in the morning. So :) will do it now .

 I did accomplish almost all of my goals today  but one ... The Y will get done tomarrow since I am going that way with a girl friend. She asked me if I would go with her to the food bank. Her family is struggling and she is embarassed ... so of corse I will go with her ... I feel so blessed God has given J a great job!  No reason to make two trips and honestly there was no time. I had to go fax something for Jessica for her drivers liscense, then a trip to walmart for a few things and a holloween costume for Jazmine (which I have to take back cause she hates it on LOL teen girls! ) then I had to do dinner. Just got done with a bath with Jason jr. and now its almost time for stories and bed. Maybe I can talk Jill into a new book ... fingers crossed LOL.

 Jess informed me today she is not sure what to do with college ... oh my how am I gonna get through this. It seems like yesterday my Jessie joy was tiny and screaming at the top of her lungs due to collic. I remember sleeping on the floor at the bottom of a washer on spin cycle in our run down trailor; the only way she would sleep was strapped into the car seat and spinning washer going. I would jump up and flip it back on spin cycle and sleep in ten min. moments for almost six months...  LOL funny now but at 19 I was so afraid of being a bad mom, so tired from working 12 hour shifts at night and stayin up all day with her screaming. I thought to myself " this child hates me" LOL now did she NO but boy it felt like it. and now look at her I can't get her to get up before 8 am without an attitude LOL . Unless of corse she has something on her agenda to do then she is bright eyed and bushy tailed.
 " Time goes by fast" people would tell me and until her 17th birthday and it dawned on me she would actually be leaving home did I understand that. Whatever she decides I will accept it support her and do my best to live without her right here. I am not afraid of her moving out I am afraid of what others will do to her. not knowing she is safe scares the living crap out of me ... but I will cope.  I have to put it in God's hands accept the tears I shed and pray for her and myself.

Wed.  is cooking day. Garnet ( a dear friend of mine) is comming over to make up some chicken enchilada dishes : healthy style: one for dinner one to freeze so I have a ready to go meal. We try to do one or two dishes each Wed. We also go through our coupons (I save so much money with them but boy I wish we had double cupin days like other cities)  and sale adds and plan what we will get and make the next week. It saves money and it is how I make sure I eat healthy. :) I baked two of the chickens today and pulled the meat from them put it in a baggy will do four more tommarrow. Last week we got them on sale for 79 cents a pound whole chicken only cost me 3 dollars :). Even if I don't use all the chicken I will freeze the rest of the shredded chicken for soups or casseroles :) maybe broccoli chicken casserole or something.

So because I can't go to the morning class till Thurs. guess they will start then. Not sure what else to do cept my little arm exercises but I guess its something. I was reading my devotionals this morning and it was enlighting. Reminded me that there is a reward just stay on the right path and God will keep his word and give us heaven. That is so true with life... I gotta keep pluggin along not let things like the class not starting till Thurs. get to me and stay focused. :) I know prayer and God will help me through this lovely thing called weight loss and his hand will guide me. :)

So today's goals will be simple::::::

Stay with the diet ...
don't get on that new scale today not till next monday ...
( why I did not own one I will stress about it)

Do some kind of slow walking...

I know I am not suppose to but my knee feels better maybe even if its just a block with the dog if it starts to hurt I will cut it short. sigh its so discouraging.... I was up to 45 min a day with jogging now and then urgh!!!! now this ... I can do it just not as fast as I was and with a limp LOL LOL but I am gonna do this.

I will also make my menu for next week and do my coupon and shopping list :)

this one is easy I love this saves money and it excites me to go to the store come out with a huge cart of groceries that is suppose to be two hundred or more and pay 70 to 80 dollars for it . :) I added a few of the sites I print coupons off of. and if anyone can think of a nice fall gift for me to get the lady who sweetly gives me all her extra sunday papers after her paper route that would be awesome. :) Bless her heart she delivers them right to my door.

Make the eye appointment for Jaz; she says the black board is blurry again sighhhhhh ... last time went through this with JJ they said he was fine LOL we will see

Last but not least. Enjoy my day to its fullest!


Thanks Connie and Amy I appriciate you both reading this and your encouragement means the world to me ... love ya!

Let's Begin

So my blog journey will begin today. I miss blogs and being able to share my thoughts. Heck I met my husband via  a blog and his , well now my family. It is nice to get thoughts out get feedback and share emotions together. This is my way to vent. That is the best way I know to put it.


I have a goal in mind and I am hoping my close friends and family will help me day by day to achieve that goal. So if you have been invited to this blog its because I respect your honesty and your opinion and I have decided there is no way I can do this alone.



I am not a English major so my spelling will be bad at times my grammer will suck cause at heart I am

Most of you know my knee has been in very bad shape and I am forced to go back to water arobics sigh..... but I will do what I have to do. I look in the mirror and ask myself how I let this happen and I honestly have no answer. Sure I can listen to the doctors tell me its a side affect to a medicine I took after my miscarrages,  but to me its a excuse. 


 I watch my father refuse to at the very least try to be healthy and I honestly believe he would be here today if he would have tried. I was so angry at him for leaving us so early for many many years and I don't want my kids to look back if my time comes and think that. Now was it all my dads fault NO but alot of it could have been provented.


I guess if I am  honest I am afraid of leaving my kids behind and alone the way I felt when dad passed away. I was barely  21 had a beautiful daughter and was pregnant with another.  He was my best friend in the whole wide world.  I took custudy of my little brother and did the best I could with my girls and Russ. I was a baby myself it was far from easy and to say I was mad at my father , well would be a understatement.!!! My mother could have cared less that he was gone and us kids were just shocked. As the oldest I did my best to cope.



This is not about the past this will be my future! My mother does many things I don't agree with but one thing she did teach me is MIND over MATTER. I do believe if you think you can do it. YOU CAN! If you think you will fail YOU WILL .


So with that said Today is I CAN ... I will each day try my best do post my blog and write down reciepes, my exercise habits, goals,  and ect.

Today's Goals

Sign up for the Y again and cancel my membership at fitness 19 ... I can't use most the machines there and they don't have water arobics so why be there I will miss it tho its so much closer and its cheaper. This will be my main objective and to go buy that scale I need at Bath and Beyond :) also I want to take measurements and write them down ... I am gonna include the girls in this they need to develope some exercise habbits :) small goal yes but its a start. I am gonna be xtra careful on my diet so if you have any good breakfast Ideas share them cause that is my downfall right now a healthy breakfast :)
Thank you to each of you who come over and join me and know I love ya or I would not have invited you!